Friday 26 November 2010
Thursday 25 November 2010
I'm Yours
You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours
You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours
You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours
I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours
Naive
'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me.
And your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be.
Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet.
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving.
And your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be.
Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet.
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving.
Serious Literature
For when your down from a break up, and then when your, well, over it!!!???? =D
Men are from Mars and women are from Venus is really, really a good book!
Obviously Ken Follett's book is too! Both are a must read!
Men are from Mars and women are from Venus is really, really a good book!
Obviously Ken Follett's book is too! Both are a must read!
Freddie Got Fingered???
Slightlllllyyyyy pissed!.....
Had to skip the film with Billy and James. Sorry guys!
Car on fire calls you know and that!
Had to skip the film with Billy and James. Sorry guys!
Car on fire calls you know and that!
Tuesday 16 November 2010
Distance/Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder??
Total OPPOSITE for me!!
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone
Sunday 14 November 2010
The Only Way is Essex
Cassette boy does it again.
The show is so bad which makes it so good. It's just funny to watch!
LOVE IT!
The show is so bad which makes it so good. It's just funny to watch!
LOVE IT!
Thursday 11 November 2010
Wednesday 10 November 2010
Tuesday 9 November 2010
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Saturday 6 November 2010
Friday, I'm in Love.
Fridays to me use to be the Mondays in my week. Blue Mondays? Nah, more like Fucked up Fridays for moi...
Recently, it has becoming more pleasant! Taking my usual trip down the hospital, that I use to call hospice! Ha!
Anyway, the doctors and nurses stayed the same, but these past few weeks, they have been quite cool. Cool as in that they have known me for quite a while now, and that it seems more friendly than patient/doctor feel roles.
Anyway, I feel much more at ease, and with them being pretty normal and not sympathetic towards me, it feels better. =)
None of that shit bullshit of fake hope and promises. Deep, raw, in your face, bam, that's life attitude.
The harder the better.
My Friday routine is repetitive, but now, I've mastered it so well, I swift through it quickly! Noooiiiccceeee!
Overall, Fridays are becoming more positive!
Bring it orrrnnnnnn! =)
Recently, it has becoming more pleasant! Taking my usual trip down the hospital, that I use to call hospice! Ha!
Anyway, the doctors and nurses stayed the same, but these past few weeks, they have been quite cool. Cool as in that they have known me for quite a while now, and that it seems more friendly than patient/doctor feel roles.
Anyway, I feel much more at ease, and with them being pretty normal and not sympathetic towards me, it feels better. =)
None of that shit bullshit of fake hope and promises. Deep, raw, in your face, bam, that's life attitude.
The harder the better.
My Friday routine is repetitive, but now, I've mastered it so well, I swift through it quickly! Noooiiiccceeee!
Overall, Fridays are becoming more positive!
Bring it orrrnnnnnn! =)
Sunday 31 October 2010
*SHRUGS*
Only make effort for the people who make effort for you.
The ones who don't let you down.
This is becoming boring, so, see you whenever!
The ones who don't let you down.
This is becoming boring, so, see you whenever!
Thursday 28 October 2010
Thursday 21 October 2010
Life's Too Short
Is it though?
Because I thought it was, but my recent thoughts and probably actions would say I wouldn't think so...
I received a very adorable FB inbox message from a friend, which came to a surprise. We don't inbox each other, we don't talk much after our nights out, we talk through our friends, so it was a pleasant surprise on what I had read. Anyway, my stressful day became a day of smiles and actual blushing because, the message consisted of someone taking the courage to say something to me which he wanted to for a while, (I'm guessing) and that he just kept it bottled up for such a long time.
Cut the long story short, it was some sort of confession to moi. Was I shocked? Yeah
Did it make me smile which he intended to do so? Yeah!
So Mr, I know you read this blog, so I just want to say thank you. It's brought a huge smile on my face and it's been there for days now.
Back to, is life too short malarky.
I left Sassoons to take a whole different route. The student route. Didn't do the whole A-Level then uni thing but straight into an apprentice and onto the qualified field I trained in. Now I've done the student thing. I miss my old job and hunger for it back. Will I regret it? I very much doubt it. I've missed it for so long, so I'm sure I'm making the right decision.
Seize the day yeah? Well I did when I jumped on the student wagon, but now, I want to go back.
So is life too short? Yes and no.
Yes, because your evidently getting older so you need to do shit that makes you happy.
No, because I'm going back on my plan....
That saying confuses me too much. Do I make sense??? I hope I am.
Now here comes another saying:
"Do what your heart tells you".
Damn right dawgggg!
Bisous x
Because I thought it was, but my recent thoughts and probably actions would say I wouldn't think so...
I received a very adorable FB inbox message from a friend, which came to a surprise. We don't inbox each other, we don't talk much after our nights out, we talk through our friends, so it was a pleasant surprise on what I had read. Anyway, my stressful day became a day of smiles and actual blushing because, the message consisted of someone taking the courage to say something to me which he wanted to for a while, (I'm guessing) and that he just kept it bottled up for such a long time.
Cut the long story short, it was some sort of confession to moi. Was I shocked? Yeah
Did it make me smile which he intended to do so? Yeah!
So Mr, I know you read this blog, so I just want to say thank you. It's brought a huge smile on my face and it's been there for days now.
Back to, is life too short malarky.
I left Sassoons to take a whole different route. The student route. Didn't do the whole A-Level then uni thing but straight into an apprentice and onto the qualified field I trained in. Now I've done the student thing. I miss my old job and hunger for it back. Will I regret it? I very much doubt it. I've missed it for so long, so I'm sure I'm making the right decision.
Seize the day yeah? Well I did when I jumped on the student wagon, but now, I want to go back.
So is life too short? Yes and no.
Yes, because your evidently getting older so you need to do shit that makes you happy.
No, because I'm going back on my plan....
That saying confuses me too much. Do I make sense??? I hope I am.
Now here comes another saying:
"Do what your heart tells you".
Damn right dawgggg!
Bisous x
Wednesday 20 October 2010
Let Go...
It gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow
Such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply
So let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow
Such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply
So let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
Monday 18 October 2010
Reasons...
I was reading a blog called 'checkmeout' blogged by a lady called Jenny. Been reading it for quite a while now and it's always been a interesting read. Especially her graphics work.
Anyway, she blogged something about females doing blogs and that it only seems to consist of what they are wearing and what they want and what's in and what's out... Etc etc....
To be honest, I find that shit boring to the core. I don't particularly give a shit about any of that. It's not personal, it's not unique, it's just some same shit I can read of Hypebeast or some fashion blog!
Jenny's reason for her blog was her baby. Sharing the journey of pregnant life and work.
I feel and I hope I give my readers that my blog is about me and the struggling life of a 24 year old female struggling with pros and cons of ovarian cancer. The journey of ups and downs and the fake positive moments I get given to have it all taken away again.
True honesty, it sucks to be me at the moment! Meh!
Some people ask me, why do you post such personal things on the web, and my reason for that, is that I like to not so much speak of my experiences, but to word it all out. I'm not one to confide in people, so this is my way of talking to you, but just with words!
Blog rant over....
Bisous! X
Anyway, she blogged something about females doing blogs and that it only seems to consist of what they are wearing and what they want and what's in and what's out... Etc etc....
To be honest, I find that shit boring to the core. I don't particularly give a shit about any of that. It's not personal, it's not unique, it's just some same shit I can read of Hypebeast or some fashion blog!
Jenny's reason for her blog was her baby. Sharing the journey of pregnant life and work.
I feel and I hope I give my readers that my blog is about me and the struggling life of a 24 year old female struggling with pros and cons of ovarian cancer. The journey of ups and downs and the fake positive moments I get given to have it all taken away again.
True honesty, it sucks to be me at the moment! Meh!
Some people ask me, why do you post such personal things on the web, and my reason for that, is that I like to not so much speak of my experiences, but to word it all out. I'm not one to confide in people, so this is my way of talking to you, but just with words!
Blog rant over....
Bisous! X
Saturday 16 October 2010
Puggy Pug Pug!
I already have a name for him. Not telling you, incase you may steal it! The best name ever!
Can't wait till I get my own flat and then I can move him in with me! Horay!!!
Can't wait till I get my own flat and then I can move him in with me! Horay!!!
24 and..........
Will I see in my 25 years of life???
I really doubt it now...
The ups and downs of my health has put an enormous amount of strain on my life. Pressure and stress everywhere I go. Nothing is never ever good for a period of time...
I'm not going to lie, I'm scared. Scared that this is it. This is the hard core shit I have to face. Rock bottom in the health category. Stone cold.
Yeah yeah, you say things will get better by just thinking positive. What if I told you I have been? What if I told you I changed my life completely for the better when I was told such bad news? Well all that positive thinking doesn't work for shit. Nada.
Ahhh jeez, this is pretty deep stuff.
Off to write my will.
(Myanh, you can have my Chanel bags! I have to make a joke in a bad situation. It works for me)
Emotional feeling:
NOTHING
EMPTY
I really doubt it now...
The ups and downs of my health has put an enormous amount of strain on my life. Pressure and stress everywhere I go. Nothing is never ever good for a period of time...
I'm not going to lie, I'm scared. Scared that this is it. This is the hard core shit I have to face. Rock bottom in the health category. Stone cold.
Yeah yeah, you say things will get better by just thinking positive. What if I told you I have been? What if I told you I changed my life completely for the better when I was told such bad news? Well all that positive thinking doesn't work for shit. Nada.
Ahhh jeez, this is pretty deep stuff.
Off to write my will.
(Myanh, you can have my Chanel bags! I have to make a joke in a bad situation. It works for me)
Emotional feeling:
NOTHING
EMPTY
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