Sunday 31 October 2010

*SHRUGS*

Only make effort for the people who make effort for you.
The ones who don't let you down.

This is becoming boring, so, see you whenever!

Thursday 21 October 2010

Life's Too Short

Is it though?
Because I thought it was, but my recent thoughts and probably actions would say I wouldn't think so...

I received a very adorable FB inbox message from a friend, which came to a surprise. We don't inbox each other, we don't talk much after our nights out, we talk through our friends, so it was a pleasant surprise on what I had read. Anyway, my stressful day became a day of smiles and actual blushing because, the message consisted of someone taking the courage to say something to me which he wanted to for a while, (I'm guessing) and that he just kept it bottled up for such a long time.
Cut the long story short, it was some sort of confession to moi. Was I shocked? Yeah
Did it make me smile which he intended to do so? Yeah!
So Mr, I know you read this blog, so I just want to say thank you. It's brought a huge smile on my face and it's been there for days now.

Back to, is life too short malarky.

I left Sassoons to take a whole different route. The student route. Didn't do the whole A-Level then uni thing but straight into an apprentice and onto the qualified field I trained in. Now I've done the student thing. I miss my old job and hunger for it back. Will I regret it? I very much doubt it. I've missed it for so long, so I'm sure I'm making the right decision.
Seize the day yeah? Well I did when I jumped on the student wagon, but now, I want to go back.

So is life too short? Yes and no.
Yes, because your evidently getting older so you need to do shit that makes you happy.
No, because I'm going back on my plan....

That saying confuses me too much. Do I make sense??? I hope I am.

Now here comes another saying:

"Do what your heart tells you".

Damn right dawgggg!
Bisous x



21/10/10

Thursday. Richard. 5pm. The Garden.


EEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!

Wednesday 20 October 2010

Piggies

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Let Go...

It gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

Such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply

So let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

Monday 18 October 2010

Life's a Mess

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But I sure keep smiling! =D

Joining Ma Familia...

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We introduce...

Bella Donna
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The shit I get up to when in bed with jet lag!

Reasons...

I was reading a blog called 'checkmeout' blogged by a lady called Jenny. Been reading it for quite a while now and it's always been a interesting read. Especially her graphics work.

Anyway, she blogged something about females doing blogs and that it only seems to consist of what they are wearing and what they want and what's in and what's out... Etc etc....

To be honest, I find that shit boring to the core. I don't particularly give a shit about any of that. It's not personal, it's not unique, it's just some same shit I can read of Hypebeast or some fashion blog!

Jenny's reason for her blog was her baby. Sharing the journey of pregnant life and work.

I feel and I hope I give my readers that my blog is about me and the struggling life of a 24 year old female struggling with pros and cons of ovarian cancer. The journey of ups and downs and the fake positive moments I get given to have it all taken away again.
True honesty, it sucks to be me at the moment! Meh!

Some people ask me, why do you post such personal things on the web, and my reason for that, is that I like to not so much speak of my experiences, but to word it all out. I'm not one to confide in people, so this is my way of talking to you, but just with words!

Blog rant over....
Bisous! X

Flying into Las Vegas!

What a bloody difference!






The Grand Canyon was approaching!

Flying into New York!








Saturday 16 October 2010

Puggy Pug Pug!

I already have a name for him. Not telling you, incase you may steal it! The best name ever!
Can't wait till I get my own flat and then I can move him in with me! Horay!!!

Materialistic Moment

I 'need' this Chanel bag to complete my collection.

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CHANEL GST

Greedy Monsters!

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You can tell this is the Hackney table...

24 and..........

Will I see in my 25 years of life???
I really doubt it now...

The ups and downs of my health has put an enormous amount of strain on my life. Pressure and stress everywhere I go. Nothing is never ever good for a period of time...
I'm not going to lie, I'm scared. Scared that this is it. This is the hard core shit I have to face. Rock bottom in the health category. Stone cold.
Yeah yeah, you say things will get better by just thinking positive. What if I told you I have been? What if I told you I changed my life completely for the better when I was told such bad news? Well all that positive thinking doesn't work for shit. Nada.

Ahhh jeez, this is pretty deep stuff.
Off to write my will.
(Myanh, you can have my Chanel bags! I have to make a joke in a bad situation. It works for me)

Emotional feeling:
NOTHING
EMPTY

Thursday 14 October 2010

Caesar Dance

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I was seriously buggin' that night! Jokes.

Sunday 3 October 2010

I Miss Vietnam

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Obviously not yummy.

Google?

Smarties have the answer!
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