Today...

My-Ha is miserable as fuck! ='(

All The Other Kids Get Everything!

=)

My-Ha x

Question.

Not sure if there's a better feeling than being 'in love' or a orgasm!?
Is there?

Boyfriend

I wish he was my boyfriend
I wish he was my boyfriend
I'd love him to the very end
But instead he's just a friend
I wish he was my boyfriend

There's nothing worse than sitting all alone at home
And waiting waiting waiting waiting by the phone
I hope that he's at home
Waiting by his phone
I wonder if he knows
That I want him

I wish he was my boyfriend
I wish he was my boyfriend
I'd love him to the very end but instead he's just a friend
I wish he was my boyfriend

The other girl is not like me
She's prettier and skinnier
She has a college degree
I dropped out when I was seventeen
If only I could get her out of the picture
Then he would know how much I want him

One day I'll make him mine
And we'll be together all the time
We'll sit and watch the sun rise
And gaze into eachother's eyes
And know that he knows
I know that he knows
That he wants to be my boyfriend

Boyfriend
Boyfriend
I'd love him to the very end
But instead he's just a friend
I wish he was my boyfriend
I wish he was my boyfriend
I'd love him to the very end
But instead he's just a friend
I wish he was my boyfriend

Tick Tock

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know.

Come out upon my seas
Curse missed opportunities
Am I a part of the cure?
Or am I part of the disease?

Let Down

High hopes to then be disappointed seems to be the only way.

Will never win.
Will never get what I want.
Will never be 'that' easy.
Will always be the same shit over and over.
Will it ever be just perfect?

So fucking gutted.

FIXED!

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But If you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

PHEW!

Tuesday just gone was the day I was to find out whether the cancer had come back or not.....

DRUM ROLLLLLLL...........

In the clear 14 months running! =) PHEW!
What a fucking relief!
I feel to cry with joy with all this weight off my shoulders!
The images still doesn't look great mind. The cancerous cells are still about, but just spread evenly around the ovaries.

Happy?

........Just a bit. =)

Fellow Yellow

Feel So Close

So close... SO CLOSE!

Chris Says...

FIX ME.

The Things We Do For Beauty

....and not ashamed! Haha!

OH!

Had my quarterly check up/scan today...
Results next week.

Had two bad dreams prior.
First one was of me having no eyebrows.
Second was me holding a pair of clippers. Started to shave the side of my head, but then just made my haircut into a bob style.

The fact that these two dreams have similar subjects, 'HAIR!', I'm freaking out!
Is it too good to be true or straight up realistic?

What made it worse was when my doctor had a look at me, and said 'OH', paused, and walked away without saying a thing to me!!!

Stressed out or what!!

Very sad at the moment.... ='(

Breaking Out

Slowly breaking out...

This is nothing.
Not happy. Depressing. =(

Word!

"M, Y, hyphen, H, A. It's the revolutionary name. You know why? Cos it's got punctuation in the middle of it! You don't often see that shit." S.Mouse (Angry Boys)

San Sebastian

Looking forward to spending my 25th birthday in San Sebastian next month! =D